has got me holding on

Finally found a normal pair of black leggings. Everything I found had zippers or cheetah print or was metallic- all well and good, but wouldn't go with the gorgeous dress I bought :D


I love my curvy body even though my ass is little too big for my tastes and my legs are still a little chubby, but I wish my upper body would stay the same minus my arms. I know it's just going to get better, 40 pounds to go.

I hate the holidays. I ate far too much. Oh well, I'm gunna do a 2 hour at the gym despite the fact that my knees are dying.

Now I have to brave stupid holiday traffic to pick up dale. from best buy. Using my superior knowledge of amherst sidestreets to fox the fox.

Dear Lap-band,

Thank you for the year of nice and easy weight loss. 75 pounds! Now lets rock the last 40 or so and make it 115 down. I'll actually try and help this time.

Love,

KR


P.S.
How did you make my body so much smaller this time around? I mean I've lost this much weight before and I've never looked this good at this weight. Shit, I couldn't even wear the clothes I'm wearing now at a smaller weight. Kudos, Lap-band, kudos. And thanks for being kind to my skin. <3

Shot with Canon PowerShot A520 at 2009-11-16

New photos are shitty, had no one to take them. But I'm getting there anyway. About 40 pounds away from goal.

So yea... I need some seasonal employment. My boss said because my brother and I both work here and need 4 days off go to my grandmas after christmas he is going to fire one of us and because I work less, it's going to be me. Not to mention we have all the shifts covered except for one- a sunday night 6 hour shift. It's not even my shift! I have my shift covered. So asshole is about to loose 3 employees. I've never had a drive off, I've never been short on my drawer, and I'm the only one who covers for him during the day. And why would he think my brother would stay if he fired me? Ugh. It just sucks because I love the job.

Also, I have a dry socket from my wisdom teeth being pulled. It's the most painful thing I have ever experienced. It's also infected. I've had kidney stones and I never cried. This made me bawl all morning until the dentist saw me. By saw me I mean jammed a medicated gauze into the socket. Yea that hurt.

Life sucks.

Super depressed today.

I totally have this freaky cancer mole that freaks me out.

Otherwise peachy keenery.

I wonder if getting my $30 thrift store winter coat tailored is worth it. I love it so, but it's gigantic on me :(

So I see my Dr. today for my one year appointment, even though it isn't a year until October 28th. I'm so close to One-derland but I don't think I made it, I'll more likely be 201 or 202. But soon! If I am at 199 I will probably cry.


My tummy hurts, and I have a feeling that my gal bladder is going a little wonky.

Free pass to my prospective new gym starts tomorrow. I'm gunna try and get there everyday since its so close to my house.


Got a fill, seems to be ok, very restricting but I can still eat if I chew well. Still lost even though I felt like I was eating far too much, this band is fantastic. Had loaded mashed at Chilli's last night and they made me really full, mashed potatoes never make me full. I'm going to start eating solids today, I hope I can rev up my weight loss because I see my surgeon the next time I go. I am doing fantastically well.

I always get worried like what if this fails, what if I will never be a normal sized girl, which is what I've been fighting for my whole life. But its great, all I needed was a band around my tummy. :D

According to my Wii fit, I'm 8 pounds from onederland.


gogogogo.


my sweet tooth needs to die.

I really need a fill- not gaining, just not loosing.


And I really want to get my arms done, but it's supposed to be super painful. It's only like 3,000 though! My arms and tummy suck.


BTW, I only want to get down to 160, no lower. I will always be a curvy girl and will always want to be. At 180 I will be size 12 in pants. I have a giant ass, if I didn't, I'd probably be like a size 8 at 180. I'm about an 18 at my current weight of 212.

When I took ephedra I got down to 170 and I looked and felt fantastic. I got hit on rediculously. So 160 is my goal. I'll be down 110. So lets do it.

My stupid scale is wrong. I am rocking the lap-band in a pleasantly slow but satisfying way. I've been working out pretty much everyday, except sunday. Hopefully my results will be a little quicker. I'm loosing about 2 pounds a week, which is what they want me to loose. But its great, I don't even feel restricted. And I haven't stalled yet.

I will loose another 30 lbs. by the end of the summer.


I wont get frustrated at my current slow rate of weight loss. A fill will fix this.

My cat sings in his kitty meows while he's taking a crap.



Fabulous. :D

I just tottaly slammed my toe into a chair and it hurt incredibly fucking bad. And I rolled my ankle going for a walk with Dale. I seriously suck at mobility. I don't get it.


So yea. I just found out at my last fill that they've been filling me as if I have a Lap-band, but I actually have a Realize Band, which is the same thing except larger. Hence it takes more saline to fill the Realize Band. So basically, they've been putting less fluid than they should have this whole time. Bitches. I still feel kind of underfilled.

I need to rock out this last 50-60 pounds. Its more like 60, because I'd like to be at 160. I would never want to be skinnier than that because my face looks too thin. My body and skin issues arent too bad. My arms are horrible but they may get better, they weren't that bad the times I've lost weight before. This is the third time I've lost 80+ pounds. The first was with ephedra. The second was on my own. This will be my third attempt. So here goes.

But I might have a shift at Sunoco, which would be awesomeness.

heh, I can't stop looking at my progress pics that I posted.

Its funny, because my boobs actually look bigger because I'm not a shapeless blob anymore.


My thighs no longer look like giant hams.

God, I'm so glad I did this. :D

I suck at posting pics, so I hope this works. So I'm posting it in my own journal to test!

( Progress Pics- I was surprized! )

yay for an Associates degree.


So tired.


Dropping weight. Steadily.

Plotting a cat tattoo.

Too bad I don't have money.